Friday, December 30, 2011

This Year

 Bon Iver, Bon Iver by boniver 


Alright, so this year is finally coming to an end.I haven't posted anything in a while, but there's been a lot going on . God, so many things have happened this year - so many ups and downs. For example.. Emotional breakdown, panic attacks, people telling you to do things you don't want to do. If you've gone through emotional breakdown (this year), if things haven't worked out like you wanted them to; so be it! You know, this year is over! 
Personally, I've gone through so much this year- HDD incident, heartache, isolation, everything actually. So yeah, emotionally, this year , was very  tough, i couldn't fight it, i wasn't able to stop the demons inside of me. But, it was actually a blessing in disguise. Whatever emotional trauma i went through, i came out as a strong, confident person.  I tried to channelize all my negative energy towards a positive thought, what happens is that I have transformed my negative energy and utilized it. I adore the darkness inside of me now, i actually love it.I think it shows in my photographs now,  am just trying to tell you guys how i actually felt when i was going through this stage in my life, my work has become very emotional, more personal and i am proud. I plan to stick to it. So, just let it out!
If I don't keep remembering that I'm not living according to worldly aims and values, that it actually doesn't matter if things go wrong, but that what is important is how I respond to these things then I can suffer. I can either suffer, or I can understand that this is just how it is right now. It's not my fault, it's not anybody else's fault, it's just how things have come together. I don't have to blame anybody, I don't have to blame myself, I don't have to fight or struggle or try to manipulate things so that they're different, all I have to do is make peace with things as they are.
Feel what you are feeling right now, it is very important. If you don't do it, you won't be happy; trust me. When we cultivate an attitude of letting go, of being present with things as they are and making peace, then the mind is more sensitive, more responsive, more intuitive; it is much more aware.Personally, people tell me that i am a very emotional person, i get easily attached to people, and that i should change.  You know, i just tell them- this is who i am, i can't change that, it's because of my emotions that i am here right now, at this stage in my life; i feel so confident in who I am and excited about who I am becoming  . Sometimes i cry too much, BUT - i love it! I feel so much better!  I think fear and sorrow are beautiful emotions; you just need to know how to play with it and cultivate it. I was waiting for a miracle, i stayed positive and i am grateful with how everything is right now.

I *Photograph my dreams* and i want to share those dreams with you. 

So, say goodbye to all your sorrows, be happy and wild! 

Much love, 
Bee

Saturday, December 10, 2011

You'll be mine

Hello beautiful people, 
yes i am going to post as many photographs as i can till am free. I don't want my blog to be dull. Yes, so these latest set of photographs are very close to my heart. As i said earlier, i am obsessed with long long hair. So i found a really beautiful girl who is also a friend of mine to do a small shoot for my book and a magazine. But, i never knew that she would be THAT good. I basically wanted to let go of some of the feelings inside my soul .

So, You'll be mine is a story about a girl who fell in love with the guy of her dreams, they were perfect, but all of a sudden everything went trembling down. She didn't know who she was anymore and lost her soul . Later, she gained her confidence back and said to herself, she is not going to let herself feel that way ever again. Though, she still loves him, but now things are going to be a little different and someday they'll be back together.


 Evening Hymns - Cedars by wavelengthtoronto 
















Model: Charvi Sarin
Photgrapher: Bhumika B

Much love,
Bee

Thursday, December 8, 2011

Fragile Hearts.

It's been so long! I miss blogging about life and my work. Things have been really stressful lately, both personal and professional.  ah, well i am going to blog about that later! I need to post some photographs on this blog! It's been a while. A few weeks back, i photographed beautiful  little girls ( 3  six year old and 1 nine year old) with super pretty hair!( lately i have been obsessed with long hair) and let me tell you, shooting children is not an easy task! My assistants ditched me at the very last minute + i was down with fever. Still, i managed , somehow.  But it was a lot of fun.  So here are the photographs from the shoot and the a little story behind it. Hope you enjoy them. :)


“Fragile Hearts”  is a story about four innocent sisters who ran away from their home to live in the wild. To breathe, to love and never leave each other. Being lost was the best thing that ever happened to them. Day after day they began to discover that the outside world is cruel, evil and will destroy their innocence. They want to stay in the wild and never leave. Hopefully meet other kids in the forest, practise rituals and elope one day into a different universe…












Much love,
Bee